…oN sOMEBODY lOVING mE…
November 7, 2007 by cheloyskee
6:06pm
It was an unusually cool day….been wearing my light sweaters lately… even sleeping with a sweater around me was comforting and therapeutic..
anyways, as I was saying.. it was quite cool lately. and I’m finding it very, very nice. I feel loved whenever the weather is cold. I don’t know why…
but….
….as i was walking on the school corridors yesterday. my eyes were automatically focused outside- to the kids playing on the fields, towards the sky… and I was wondering when it is going to rain. like I said, I feel loved when it does. =)
..then a door from one of the classrooms opened, and out came one of my co-teachers. “I love you, Miss Cheloy!”, said she with a smile on her face.
…and without thinking I blurted, “Why?”
…gosh. so much for being confident of being Loved, huh?
….that day, I thought to myself, and asked myself, why did I asked WHY?? Don’t I believe the I can be loved without reasons? that I will be loved JUST BECAUSE??
Though my co-teacher said that she LOVES me, period, I knew that deep in my heart I had or have WHY questions… The bible did say that IN THE ABUNDANCE OF THE HEART, THE MOUTH SPEAKS, right? =)
aduh. gudlak talaga saken. hay. magtatampo na naman si Lordie neto.
“Sorry, Lord….”
A grade 2 student hurriedly put this on my desk, and ran as fast as he could. nahiya pa daw ba. =) cute cute…
Babe, you are loved just the way you are..No conditional reason for that..Just receive it..And I luv your student’s drawing..Sooo cute..
you know what? just a few days ago, my heart was sooooooooo confident on the TRUTH that Jesus is the only being that can make me feel REALLY REALLY LOVED!!! i knew that already, but when adversity comes, i react as if i don’t. =( …now,i felt like there are these scales that fell out of the eyes of my heart and saw how tenderly Jesus’ looks at me everyday, everynight..and every waking moment of my life…i said Sorry to God for the times that i cried over feelings of rejection, and abandonment.. saying sorry for wasting my tears.. and that nite, he answered me through Psalms 56:8 “(I) keeps track all of your sorrows…(I) collected all (your) tears in (my) bottle.. (I) recorded each on in (my) book. ”
Truly, Jesus is sooooo much alive and is near.. =)